hei igjen

nå er det leeeenge siden jeg skrev her...

vi har nå vært prøvere i 15 mnd.. uten noe resultat.

trengte en lang pause fra det hele, men er nå tilbake for fullt.

i dag er jeg 5 dpo og venter spent..

prøver å ikke håpe. men innert inne så gjør jeg jo egentlig det.

gubben har startet i ny jobb, kun nattevakter.

jeg syntes det er super deilig.. nyyyyter mye tid alene :P

nå skal jeg lage litt mat her, rundstykker med kokt egg :D

kose meg meg god mat og ungene :D gubbis sover fortsatt

:(

back from a long and stressful weekend..

it all started with me waking up on friday morning.. bleeding.

kept on bleeding until there was no baby left inside me ..

leaving me with the empty hopeless feeling of failing again..

oh well.. like the doctor said today.. good luck.. and if you have 2 more miscarriages within the next 4-5 months , they COULD THINK about looking into it..

great...

on sunday, my son who had his tonsils removed, got hit in the back by his brother.

ended up with him losing over 6 dl of blood before we even made it to the hospital.

but he is ok now :)

so ... all good.. shit weekend ..

sick of trying .. sick of it all...

focus on housework from now on. since dan's parents are coming over from wales next week ... i think :S

3 weeks and 5 days (3+5)

so far i have ONE tenter boob :P i can smell everything! and i hate to eat..

this happens with the "baby" in week 3 .
Sperm meets egg within the fallopian tube and the miracle of life begins.
Although several sperm may penetrate the egg's outer layer, only one sperm will enter the ovum and fertilize it.
In the middle of the ovum, the chromosomes of mother and father splash about and bits of information from both begin to form the chromosomes of your baby.
At the moment of conception, your baby's gender is determined thanks to the sex chromosomes in the father's sperm.
If you don't like the gender of your baby, blame dad.

This happends to me :

If you're feeling tired this week, or you're convinced that your breasts are achy or are already starting to enlarge, it may not be all in your head. They're both early signs of pregnancy.
You might also be having major mood swings (according to your partner, anyway—you're pretty sure you're being quite levelheaded and reasonable). This is all due to the hormones that are racing like Danica Patrick through your body. Those hormones are also responsible for the unimaginable exhaustion you might feel at all hours of the day.

That sudden urge to pee every 10 minutes is also an early sign of pregnancy. Unfortunately, you'll keep on peeing with this irritating frequency for the next 37 weeks, so load up on Charmin.

You may even experience the first twinges of morning sickness this week. Once you get that positive pregnancy test next week, you'll realize it actually wasn't your partner's driving that was making you feel queasy (and apologies will probably be in order). It certainly doesn't help matters that your sense of smell is suddenly sharper than a Labrador's and everything you get a whiff of makes you want to barf.

TINA

my girl Tina..
my wonderful,wonderful Tina.

you died 13 years ago , june 22nd.
i miss you so much. i feel like my heart is ripped apart.

i cant even begin to explain how much i need you.
and how much you ment to me.

mr.hubby told me to get over it already.. and i realised...
i dont wanna get over "it"

i need to believe that you will come back to me.

i cant give up on that.. it will be the same as letting you go.
and i cant let you go.

please come back to me ..

positive?

omg omg
i got a blue + on my clearblue today!!
happy,scared worried.. over the top.. oh god!

ok.. dont let it go all to my head now.. what if .. what if it falls out!!
its like a 90% chance it will go wrong at this point...
3weeks and 3days..
but for every day it klings on, im happy..
so fingers xed!!

kiddos operation day

Now its over and done with :D
and my boy was so brave!!

now he is sleeping peacefully on the sofa :) my big boy!!!

still negative... :P

and yes, im stupid for testing already!!
still daaaays left before im having my period.

i haate this !! haha

sympt. hunting :
**exhaustion, i fall asleep every day , even if i slept 10 hours at night. (might just be lazy )
**Smells - could smell hubbys beef rom across the room!!
**heartburn -- never had that before. i keep throwing up in my mouth :S
**peeing - all the time .. like, every other hour.
**cramps- sometimes it feels like im getting my period
**Nausea- comes and goes
**hunger - suddenly i get so hungry it hurts..
but all of this might just be a normal week in a girls life right ?